Injury Pity Party

Ouch right? Imagine how life would be like if this could happen just from turning a corner while walking in your house. Well no need...this has happened 4 times to me over the past week.

The picture above shows a very painful condition that I unfortunately have apparently due to being skinny and being born this way.

The past few weeks it has been acting up and I have done nothing pole related since January 6th. I cant handle it.

This is how my wine dependency started it went down...

January 6th life was good. I submitted my video to the online round for the  Midwest Regional elite division pole competition. Im not thrilled with it however it has the compulsory moves required and at least I had the balls  courage this time to submit a video.

And here starts the pitty party that I typically keep to my self but, for the the love of god I have to get this off my chest!

The next day I woke up and it was instantly like my body had aged 50 years.

I knew this was not my typical after workout soreness...this was something much worse. So I went to my Dr and long story short I have to gain more muscle in my legs to help stabilize my knee caps. I lost alot of muscle mass the past year that I have been doing pole because I have not used any weights just my own body. I thought being lean was great however gaining  weight was suggested by my Dr to help with joint support .Ill start weight lifting again soon as my knees are not quite as painful.Maybe physical therapy and plenty of ice/heat will help as well.

  So in conclusion my knee caps have all the sudden decided to make my life hell and are apparently trying to talk my hips into becoming a part of their plan to put me 6 feet under as they too are now aching for no reason. .

Oh on a semi-positive note my 45 mm chrome x-pert X pole came in the mail.!!!

Its perfect! 

 However I cannot use it due to fear of my knee popping out and passing out due to the pain.So I just sit and look at it, cry into my glass of wine, and hope that its all a bad dream.

I think I may try knitting,chess,or get a rascal scooter to make my quality of life better.

OK OK...

 I know its not the the end of the world but seriously its painful and not fair.

Stretching hurts, I have no internet at home, I cant use my pole, and Im sooo sad.

Positives:

#1. I have been wearing lotion every day because there is now no fear that I will slip off the pole. and fall 9 feet to my death.

#2. I can get a cane and use it as a weapon.

and

#3. Its a good reason to buy a good pair of gym shoes for work with better support. I love shoes.

I have alot of topics I want to cover and will soon as I have internet at home. thanks for listening to me whine my ass off. wahh

<3 linz

thanks raccoon.